Tuesday, April 22, 2003

I feel like crap today...Hope tomorrow is better. Still hurts to breathe properly.
Lladira at 9:38 PM

Monday, April 21, 2003

Interesting...

While I was Shopping with Kira the other day we had this peramedic adventure. The day Kira and Rickey and Chris came over, we went to Billiaeds and as we were driving there, Kir and I saw these cute PAaramedics hehehe. Then when we went to the thousand oaks mall, we saw and ambulance with more paarmedics. Then we went to the pacific view mall and there were more paramedics!!!! It was funny!! Good looking one at that :) Yeah while we were there I went into Hot Topic (Pacific View MAll) and I saw the Care bears!!!!! I really want the Blue One!!!!! Its Sooo cute!! Plus Im feeling like crap right now and I need something to hug! I had three asthma attacks saturday do to the stupid smoke in Vegas. It was nasty stuff. My chest and throat hurt.....
Lladira at 7:56 PM

BUahaha!! I went to Vagas! Dear lord and it sucked. Way too much smoke in the air. I'll never complain about Oxnard's smelly air again. I did go shopping though. I bought stuff at Victoria's Secret and I also bought someother stuff a different stores. Hehee I got in momentarily into a 21 and over club cause they weren't checking ID's. Pretty funny but we left right away cause it smelled like smoke. Of course, all of VEgas smelled like smoke and I got ASTHMA!! YEah, way to go. And since LLadie never gets an asthma attack she didn't have her inhailer and it sucked. Damn attacks. ME still suffering from them. Tryouts were today for short flags and will be for the next twoo weeks. I bought my dress for the military ball and I'm soo excited over that. Yay! I was also happy because Daniel came to visit!! Yay!! He's in the Marines and he is currently stationed at Okinawa, Japan. HE game me his email address and I will be writing to hi after he leaves. Yup...I'm tired....


SOoo sad...

Freshman

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She
looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone
went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.

Buahahaha Funny!!

President George Bush is visiting an elementary school and he visits one of the classes (4th grade). They are in the middle of a discussion related to words and their meanings.

The teacher asks the President if he would like to lead the class in the discussion of the word, "tragedy." So our illustrious leader asks the class for an example of a "tragedy."

One little boy stands up and offers, "If my best friend, who lives next door, is playing in the street and a car comes along and runs him over,that would be a tragedy."

"No," says Bush, "that would be an ACCIDENT."

A little girl raises her hand: "If a school bus carrying 50 children drove off a cliff, killing everyone involved, that would be a tragedy."

"I'm afraid not," explains Mr. President. "That's what we would call a GREAT LOSS."

The room goes silent. No other children volunteer. President Bush searches the room.

"Isn't there someone here who can give me an example of a tragedy?" Finally, way in the back of the room, a small boy raises his hand.In a quiet voice he says, "If an American Air Force plane, carrying Mr. & Mrs. Bush, were struck by a missile and blown up to smithereens, by a terrorist like Osama bin Laden, that would be a tragedy."

"Fantastic," exclaims Bush, "that's right." "And can you tell me WHY that would be a tragedy?"

"Well," says the boy, "because it wouldn't be an accident, and it certainly would be no great loss."

Lladira at 7:02 PM

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

YEhawww!!! Crazy Spring break!!! Kira, Rickey, and Chris came over yesterday. YEah Chris is back from Portland and he brought a game called "The real Life" along with him!! Yay!! So Chris and I were gonna play then I invited Kira to come over and Rickey came as well!! It wa a crazy day!!! We played the game and its crazyy!! It's better than the game "Life" cause this one is the real life!! Sooo like we were going through it and all of a sudden rickey says...

--OMG!! Menopause! That's when it stops!!! Hahaha !! It makes sense now!!!--Rickey

Its Like WTH!! Rcikey my boy, where have you been these past 16 years of your life and where was your head suring health and science classes? hehe, he's funny though. After a fun game we headed over to Biliards and bought BOBA!!! We talked and Chris left. Rickey, Kira, and I had a very long chat and found out some pretty interesting stuff. Then we came home and Kira, Rickey, and I talked some more and Rickey (retardo as Kira calls him) left. So Kira and I had a very long chat and got to know each other a lot more while we ate sandwitches. This srping break has been awesome!! I got to know them all a bit more and its amazing to find out you have a lot in common with a person who seems to be diffrent from you. Like KIra might be very girly and stuff and I know some people think she's a ho and stuff but she's really a strong girl with lots of morals like me. Except since many people see she's very girly and dresses like that, they immidiately assume she's not a good girl. It's like judging a book by its cover and there is soo much more to her than people think. I'm so happy to be her friend and I hope our friendship can get stronger than it already is. I'm done with U.S history and tomorrow my sister takes me to L.A. to buy my prom dress (I don't have a date yet but I really am hoping I can go this year so I'lll buy one anyway!!) and my military ball dress (which by the way I am going with Guillermo!! yay!. Kira and Clari are coming along and we are gonna have a blast!!! Short Flags is having their beach party tomorrow as well and I hope I can make it to part of it at least!! and It looks like Im going to Las Vegas on Saturday and Sunday with my family!! Weeee!! This Spring Break is turning out better than expected!!

ME SOng!! For today!!

3x5 By John MAyer

I'm writing you to
catch you up on places I've been
You held this letter
probably got excited, but there's nothing else inside it
didn't have a camera by my side this time
hopping I would see the world with both my eyes
maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way with words

Today skies are painted colors of a cowboy's cliche'
And strange how clouds that look like mountains in the sky
are next to mountains anyway
Didn't have a camera by my side this time
Hoping I would see the world with both my eyes
Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way
but let me say
You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes
it brought me back to life

You'll be with me next time I go outside
just no more 3x5's Guess you had to be there
Guess you had to be with me

Today I finally overcame
tryin' to fit the world inside a picture frame
Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to
lose my way but let me say
You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes
it brought me back to life

You'll be with me next time I go outside
no more 3x5's
just no more 3x5's
Lladira at 9:53 PM

Monday, April 14, 2003

Well I'm having a blast doing tons of hw..geesh..what a spring break!! I cut my hair on Friday and I can say that its pretty short. My hair is currently straight and the ongest layer is chest level and the shortest one is like 1.5 inches below my chin. Yeah. Chris is coming over tomorrow to see it hehee. And something interesting I got in the mail yesterday...

By Joseph Clifford:

We supported Bin Laden and the Taliban for years, and viewed them as freedom fighters against the Russians? Isn't that strange?

As late as 1998 the US was paying the salary of every single Taliban official in Afghanistan? Isn't that strange?

There is more oil and gas in the Caspian Sea area than in Saudi Arabia, but you need a pipeline through Afghanistan to get the oil out. Isn't that strange?

UNOCAL, a giant American Oil conglomerate, wanted to build a 1000 mile long pipeline from the Caspian Sea through Afghanistan to the Arabian Sea. Isn't that strange?

UNOCAL spent $10,000,000,000 on geological surveys for pipeline construction, and very nicely courted the Taliban for their support in allowing the construction to begin. Isn't that strange?

All of the leading Taliban officials were in Texas negotiating with UNOCAL in 1998. Isn't that strange?

1998-1999 the Taliban changed its mind and threw UNOCAL out of the country and awarded the pipeline project to a company from Argentina. Isn't that strange?

John Maresca VP of UNOCAL testified before Congress and said no pipeline until the Taliban was gone and a more friendly government was established. Isn't that strange?

1999-2000 The Taliban became the most evil people in the world. Isn't that strange?

Niaz Naik, a former Pakistani Foreign Secretary, was told by senior American officials in mid-July that military action against Afghanistan would go ahead by the middle of October. Isn't that strange?

9/11 WTC disaster.

Bush goes to war against Afghanistan even though none of the hijackers came from Afghanistan. Isn't that strange?

Bush blamed Bin Laden but has never offered any proof saying it's a "secret". Isn't that strange?

Taliban offered to negotiate to turn over Bin Laden if we showed them some proof. We refused; we bombed. Isn't that strange?

Bush said: "This is not about nation building. It's about getting the terrorists." Isn't that strange? We have a new government in Afghanistan. Isn't that strange?

The leader of that government formerly worked for UNOCAL. Isn't that strange?

Bush appoints a special envoy to represent the US to deal with that new government, who formerly was the "chief consultant to UNOCAL". Isn't that strange?

The Bush family acquired their wealth through oil? Isn't that strange?

Bush's Secretary of Interior was the President of an oil company before going to Washington. Isn't that strange?

George Bush Sr. now works with the "Carlysle Group" specializing in huge oil investments around the world. Isn't that strange?

Condoleezza Rice worked for Chevron before gong to Washington. Isn't that strange?

Chevron named one of its newest "supertankers" after Condoleezza. Isn't that strange?

Dick Cheney worked for the giant oil conglomerate Haliburton before becoming VP. Isn't that strange?

Haliburton gave Cheney $34 Million dollars as a farewell gift when he left Haliburton. Isn't that strange?

Haliburton is in the pipeline construction business. Isn't that strange?

There is $6 Trillion dollars worth of oil in the Caspian Sea area. Isn't that strange?

The US government quietly announces Jan 31, 2002 we will support the construction of the Trans-Afghanistan pipeline. Isn't that strange?

President Musharref (Pakistan), and Karrzai, (Afghanistan -Unocal) announce agreement to build proposed gas pipeline from Central Asia to Pakistan via Afghanistan. (Irish Times 02/10/02) Isn't that strange?

"It's the Oil, Stupid!"
Lladira at 5:39 PM

Saturday, April 12, 2003

LL Cool J Time! Juan of course is the best!! We had a hilarious convo on the phone and Alex you nned to go to the movies with us dang it!!

-Your the best--ME
-No you are--Juan
-No you are!! --ME
-Dammit! Stop taking my compliments!- Juan

-You asked me out at the basketball courts remember?-Me
-I did?- Juan
-Yeah.--ME
-What did I say?--Juan
-"You want to be my girlfriend?" and I said "I have to wait 'till I'm 15."--Me
-Oh crap, I was still a pimp!--Juan

-I've always been a gentlemen. I pulled out a chair for you in Rocio's quince remember?--Juan
-We're talking about sixth grade!!--Me
-Well that one time...uh..um..--Juan

-I'm the greatest.--Juan
-OMG you concieded man!--ME

-I talk to a lot of girls-- --Juan
-Yeah. --ME
-I talk to a lot of girls period. --Juan

-Be quiet I never stalked you. --Me
-Yes you did!!--Juan
-NO I never did! --Me
-Not even a little?-- Juan
-No sorry... --ME

-We should like raise them in mexico and stuff.--ME
-No one deserves that LLadie.--Juan

-I think there is a boggy monster under my bed. --Me
-What the f*** is ***** doing there!!?--Juan

-I'm going to hit you with a twig!--Me
-Stop making fun of ********! --Juan

-Your mom is the best. --Me
-The best at being dumb. --JUan

-Yeah your gonna be on my blog and your mom is gonna say "why are you looking at guy pictures?"--ME
-Yeah and "when did you go wrong!?"--Juan
Lladira at 9:15 PM

Wednesday, April 09, 2003

My ankle hurts!!! I think I sprained it!! haha!! Norman!! Bach!! and by the way I think I broke a toe too!! I ran into Mr. Broneman and Mr. Conte today at Borders it was funny. I was buying a Koran and the Poisonwood Bible which Mr. B said would be really good. Thats all for now. Hope my ankle gets better.
Lladira at 9:34 PM

Monday, April 07, 2003

Gillian is the ho once again

Bright Cassiopea: you guys are going as dates and im your ho
Bright Cassiopea: ;-) heheee jk
StarlightSpark13: LMAO!!!

BAch!!
Pikanorm: you were leaning toward that
Pikanorm: bach
StarlightSpark13: nono
StarlightSpark13: its labach, nabach
StarlightSpark13: bach
StarlightSpark13: :-D
Pikanorm: no just bach
Pikanorm: you're a bach yaya
Pikanorm: LOL
Pikanorm: classic
StarlightSpark13: no no your a back norman!!
StarlightSpark13: you bach!!
Pikanorm: hahaha
Lladira at 10:16 PM

Chris made my day!! In fact I think he made my week!! MG!! He gave me the John Mayer CD!!! I couldn't download the songs a while ago and Chris being the sweet boy he is gave me the CD!! YAY!! Blissfully Happy now...

By the Way Check out my new MAp and G-book!
Lladira at 9:21 PM

Friday, April 04, 2003

One of my favorite artists of all time...Laura Pausini....

I can't pretend anymore
That I am not affected, I'm not moved
I can't lie to myself that I'm not always thinking of you

You make me strong
You show me I'm not weak to fall in love
When I thought I'd never need
Now I can't get enough

Bridge:
I always made it on my own,
I always thought that I would keep control
You changed everything I believe in,
And now I just can't fight this feeling baby

Chorus:
I raise my hands and I surrender
'Cause your love is too strong and I can't go on
Without your tender arms around me,
I raise my hands and I surrender
I don't wanna resist 'cause your touch and your kiss
Have shattered my defenses
I surrender

I have to admit that I,
I never thought I'd need someone this way
cause you opened my eyes so that I...
I can see so much more

Bridge:
I always made it on my own
I always thought that I would keep control
You changed everything I believe in
And now I just can't fight this feeling baby

Chorus:
I raise my hands and I surrender
'Cause your love is too strong and I can't go on
Without your tender arms around me
I raise my hands and I surrender
I don't wanna resist 'cause your touch and your kiss
Have shattered my defenses
I surrender

I surrender to this feeling in my heart
I surrender to the safety of your arms
To the touch of your lips
To the taste of your kisses

I raise my hands and I surrender
'Cause your love is too strong and I can't go on
Without your tender arms around me

I raise my hands and I surrender
'Cause your love is too strong and I can't go on
Without you..........

I surrender
I raise my hands and I surrender
'Cause your love is too strong and I can't go on
Without your tender arms around me

I surrender
I can't pretend anymore
I can't lie to myself that I'm not always thinking of you
Lladira at 10:22 PM

Ayy our last comp of the season is tomorrow. Geesh time goes by so fast. I'm almost down with the splits!! Yay!! I'm like 2 inches off the floor weeee!! I neeed a break. A big one...

HAha!! This is kinda ironic...


Your Body is a Wonderland


What John Mayer Song are you...?
brought to you by Quizilla

OOO..the sea eh?

You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawn
to the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystal
blue water, near the sea is where you belong.


Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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Lladira at 9:46 PM

Thursday, April 03, 2003

::WAVES:: Feel better Gillian!!
Lladira at 9:16 PM

Chris your sooo sweet...

Starfox0064x: I'll work my magic for you tomorrow
StarlightSpark13: haha
StarlightSpark13: are you my fairy godfather?
Starfox0064x: well, I never thought of myself as that...
StarlightSpark13: :-D
Starfox0064x: maybe I'm a human form of a guardian angel...
StarlightSpark13: aww
StarlightSpark13: thats so sweet
Lladira at 8:47 PM

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

I saw Alan today!! Not Lotinville but the senior who graduated last year. Yeah the one guy whose's ear I nibbled on in Charisse's grad party. (I was dared I swear!) Great news!! He's gonna be a combat control specialist basically in the Special Forces!! Yay!! That takes guts and I'm so proud!!

Quotes:

--Being single is great- Me
--Yup, you can do what you want- Aaron
--With who you want- ME
--When you want--Aaron
--As long as you want--ME
--However you want...--Aaron
--Ewww!- Me

*Aaron and I laugh*

--I'm single, you single?- Aaron
--I'm single - Me
--Let's mingle -Aaron
--Heyyy... -ME

Ohh how bout that CPR eh?- Aaron *haha*
Lladira at 8:41 PM

Wow crazy day!! I have three things I must turn in for ceramics on Friday. I don't have to wear my ROTC uniform until after spring break. I have to get a date for the military ball. I don't know if Guillermo can go. I have the dang cold war project. 3 quizes I have to make up for Math and a shitload of crap to do!! boo!! and this is to Gillian. Yes you!! My friend, you see life i filled with beautiful things and beautiful people. Don't get jelous. Jelousy is a waste of time. I know its hard to actually accept that some friends have things that you have but jelousy is a waste of time. Instead get happy for what they have because most likely they lack something you have. ( Like Lladie lacks your intelligence) I know what you mean when you say ceratin things but you know what? Your only seventeen and your not the first girl to lack that special someone. ( just like me!) It is especially hard when you see someone cuddling with someone on a cold day cause it makes you say "Damn! I want someone to keep me warm!" But being single is a blast. See you have that privlege that other girls in relationships lack. The freedom to do "what the hell you want, with who you want, whenever you want, however you want." as Aaron France said today. (CPR! hahaa!! geesh!) Don't spend your time wondering and moping about what you dont have but about what you do cause just think of the people who don't have great friends, a car dammit, beauty inside and outside (no matter what you say), class, and intelligence. BE carefree and drugfree like me weeee!! (j/k) But in all seriousness, move on don't dwell in what you lack, enjoy what you have.


::Eye CAndy::

oolalala!! John MAyer!!


David's political cartonn on the Soviet Atomic Bomb ( the one I had last year)

StarlightSpark13: what?
DLM2100: two scales i draw.......WORLD POWER at the bottom
StarlightSpark13: draw two bombs
StarlightSpark13: hehe
DLM2100: on one side U.S., on the other Soviet union
DLM2100: bomb in each scale
StarlightSpark13: haha
StarlightSpark13: yup
DLM2100: and they're even!!!!!!!!
DLM2100: woohooo
StarlightSpark13: haha!! suckas!!
Lladira at 8:35 PM

Tuesday, April 01, 2003

You're so mysterious... beautiful and charming, your mere presense lights up the lives of everyone around you. You love nature and fantasy-related things, although you usually prefer to be alone. When you do interact with people, you're the sweetest thing! Your enigmatic beauty captures the hearts of everyone you meet.
Which Final Fantasy Theme Song Is YOUR Theme?
Lladira at 7:30 PM

AYYY JUAN!!

MadDawg298: oh hell yea, I found all the hoez
MadDawg298: ugly hoez....but still
StarlightSpark13: LOL

and it continues...

StarlightSpark13: guess what happened to me ytoday?
MadDawg298: I dunno
MadDawg298: you entered prostituion?
MadDawg298: :-)
StarlightSpark13: no juan
StarlightSpark13: no

geesh juan....
StarlightSpark13: i dropped a cookie into my shirt 4th per
MadDawg298: ooh I like where this is going
StarlightSpark13: wth!!
StarlightSpark13: hahah
StarlightSpark13: no
StarlightSpark13: lol

yup that's my best freind for ya...

StarlightSpark13: yeah so i had to use JAclyn as a shiel to take it out
StarlightSpark13: very sad
MadDawg298: how sad
MadDawg298: I cry for you Lladie
StarlightSpark13: lame-o
StarlightSpark13: no u dont
StarlightSpark13: your smiling
MadDawg298: I am! hehe :-D
StarlightSpark13: thats how well i nkknow you
StarlightSpark13: :-D
Lladira at 7:00 PM

Reaction to eye candy...

Dee GreenTea: I LOVE YOUR BLOG
Dee GreenTea: hayden...how much I love theeee....
Dee GreenTea: ::drools::
StarlightSpark13: lol
StarlightSpark13: wee soemone is drooling score!!
Lladira at 6:46 PM

WEEE :::Eye Candy Time:::!!!

Ekk! Hayden Christensen is hotness!!!










Lladira at 6:14 PM

YAY I GOT MY BLOG BACK!!!!!!
Lladira at 1:43 PM

Kyle is the best!! His comments on the A-bomb.

--You think kids playing with fireworks is bad enough wait 'till you see adults playing with those things.

--They werre probably like Oh crap!!...RUNNN!!

mojorisin086: i once had a nightmare where i went on a shooting spree but somehow i couldn't kill ********
mojorisin086: and she came back to haunt me
StarlightSpark13: thats sad
mojorisin086: i woke up sweating bullets
StarlightSpark13: *********i the sweetest
StarlightSpark13: woah what a dream
mojorisin086: i don't know what that was supposed to mean, though
mojorisin086: maybe it's a sign
mojorisin086: maybe God sent ********** to torture me
StarlightSpark13: lol
Lladira at 1:40 PM